im gona die..!! i m so freaking busy recently!! with work.. and stuffs.. all e problems.. but i've got no one to talk to... =( so sad right?... actually.. i do hav some one to talk to.. but i guess he wouldn't be interested anyway (its proven)... oh well... i still hav my frens... =) that's wat frens r for rite?? they wil stick w me thru thick n thin.. they will always b here for me no matter wat happens.. b my listening ear, my aunty/uncle agony, even if they wouldnt b physically here, at least they bother to listen to my endless complains.. and give me words of encouragement, rather den some useless and unconstructive comments..
frens wouldn't scold me for nth.. when i m hungry, they will ask me to eat something, so tt i wouldn't get gastric pain. in e past, they will even bring me out to eat without any complains. when i m sick, they will comfort me n wished tt i'll b ok soon. i used to hav a fren who wil even bring me to e doctor even when he is busy with other things.. well, i guess tis is human nature... ppl always treat frens betta den their loved ones?? no?? but nt for me i would say...
something funny happened a few days ago.. (when i say funny, it doesnt reali mean funny ok?..) tis person, lets call him F.
F came hm, n i told him tt i was hungry.. despite having dinner earlier on, i juz felt hungry at tt moment alright.. so i asked F to go eat together..
F: 'OK'
so he went to tk a bath n i prepared myself..
aft bathing, F called up frens n they decided to mit up at XX location. F was rather in a rush to mit frens, so he asked me y didnt i hav dinner?
ME: 'i did.. but i feel hungry juz when u came bck ma..'
F: *laughs abit sarcastically* 'wat i come bck den u hungry?'
F continues ranting some ridiculous rubbish at me tt i couldnt remember exactly wat...
F: *pek chek mood* 'u c ah.. when i hungry i gt tel u anot?? i ownself go n eat 1 ma... i gt always wait for u bring me eat 1 anot?'
ME: *speechless*
F: 'y everytime when i gt something to do, u surely gt another come up to stop me 1..' 'like sick ah, wan to go hm, hungry ah, wan to eat...'
ME: *tinkin in my head - i tot being sick is something v serious???* y would any1 else tink of doin other things when someone close to u is sick..??
F: bla bla bla rubbish rubbish rubbish
we den proceeded to XX location w/o eatin....
at XX location...
ME: 'hungry leh'
F den said something ridiculous
and i walked away in anger....
F: 'i cannot tolerate u anymore liao!!!! u give tis kind of attitude u c other ppl can tolerate anot??!!! i always love u so much.. u always go shopping wan to c clothes i oso nv complain...'
ME: 'wat r u tokin about?? i m sayin im hungry leh.. wat has it gt to do w c clothes.. anyway in e end u oso nv bring me go eat wat! say so much for wat!'
obviously F has changed another subject... i m talkin about me = hungry...
ME: *fuming away*....
F walks away for awhile..... and came back...
F: *in a sweet voice* 'wat u wan to eat lata baby??? i bring u go eat.'
FUCK! TINK I SMALL KID AH! NO APPETITE TO EAT LIAO LA!!
u find tis F ridiculous??? i reali gt nth to say... LL.... hw can someone claim tt he love someone very much... when he doesnt even hav e tinkin tt he would wana bring e gf go eat in case she gets gastric pain, instead in a hurry to mit fren.. or when gf is sick he wouldnt tink of gf as stoppin him fr meetin frens... reali keeps me tinkin...
and tt was wat kept me feelin low tis few days... i was reali touched when a fren said 'i will always b here for u'.. and i noe they mean it.. bcoz since younger days, wheneva i hav probs i would always speak/consult tt fren.. n w/o fail.. he'll always encourage me n give me gd advices. thanks my dear frens.. though not a dozen.. but tt few is reali more den enuff.. i appreciated it deep dwn in my heart... i m talkative in nature, i may nt show it.. but i need to talk, say things out.. i hate it when i hav things stucked in me n i hav nobody to tell.. it sucked totally.. sayin it juz makes me feel betta.. though most of e prob comes fr tt person, and i would reali like him to noe wat he has done n hw i feel... but.. well.. who cares rite? like i said.. he's nt interested in things i say.. i dun reali bother much nowadays... y make myself suffer?? juz felt a little sad, tinkin y things wil turn out tis way... y conversations become lesser n lesser n y i no longer wished to tel him things i used to say... sighh.. i'm supposed to b happy every single day aint i??!!! n i will b... =)
see... im smiling away so happily.... =)
i love big butts & i cannot lie!!!
